ADHD… the acronym for Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. Heard of it? Lived with it? Lived with one who has it?
I have lived under the impression that my parents considered the hyperactivity which has kept bubbling from within me a curse. Both my parents were physicians… my Mom an Obstetrician while my Dad a Paediatrician. Being a Paediatrician, I suppose living with this truth was more a trial than anything else for my father, perhaps because he may have believed Paediatricians should be able to control their children, let alone one single child. I would like to believe he managed well with my 4 other siblings, but I think I was one wild wire that kept on going and going and going. Discipline and punishment failed to do very much because those were not the solutions to the problem.
Yesterday, I had a wonderful time with Msgr. Greg. I had gone in a tad skittish and my hands were shaking and so I had to ask him to pour me a cup of tea. I had arrived with such a heavy heart because the purpose of our meeting was for a serious concern. With God’s grace, Msgr Greg was able to help me understand and with that understanding, I was set free. Doesn’t Scripture speak of that? “Then you will know the truth and the truth shall set you free.” John 8:32
Msgr Greg helped me grasp something crucial. Although I don’t totally agree with him on this, he mentioned that it was good to experience strong emotions. Perhaps because I am a highly sensitive person, strong emotions are too much for me to handle. I do well with mediocre, while I dread the lack of emotions that come with a bout of depression. Msgr mentioned that if a situation is related to his family, it was normal for him to experience strong emotions. However, if the situation was distant (you don’t know the person or the incident that has taken place is far away from home) he attempts to dampen his emotions for self-protection, although he still expresses concern. As if he was able to read my mind, he said, “at the moment, you feel like you are trapped in the middle and you feel like a victim.” Man, did he nail it on the head! Having him help me distance myself from the situation brought so much relief! I was so muddled in the situation I found myself in and I needed someone more experienced and wiser to help me through. I cannot say that Msgr is less emotional than I am, as he often claims he cries at ball games, but undoubtedly, his role as a Priest and his additional administrative roles in the Archdiocese have blessed him with wisdom I had yet failed to acquire!
As we drew closer to the end of our short time together, he mentioned, “Moving on to the street ministry work that we have been struggling with, I do want you to know that it is not me personally who is against what you are doing, but a few who I have asked for assistance admit that they like you, but they can’t handle how you function in a tizzy!”
OH THAT! My outbursts of high energy and excitement have scared some people away! I can handle that! My best friend often mentions that I manage to do a lot of things, but always in a non-conventional way.
The previous night, I had listened to a prophetic teaching of Graham Cooke. He had mentioned that some have Guardian Angels who have applied for a transfer. He also mentioned that if your Guardian Angel is in counselling, then you are in real trouble! I did mention the latter to Msgr Greg to explain the state that I originally was in, but the truth is, I think my Guardian Angel has applied for a replacement and /or for an assistant a long time ago.
Perhaps to some, the hyperactivity that bubbles out from within me is a curse, but to me, it is a true blessing. It has taken me a long, long time to receive healing, but God has revealed that I am a gift from Him to myself and to the world.
Lord, thank You for who I am. You’ve made each of us in your own likeness. Some of us have more quirks than others, but Lord, we know we’re fine. In Your word You said “nothing can separate us from the love of God which is found in Christ Jesus.” Romans 8:38 You also said, “For I know the plans that I have for you, says the Lord, plans NOT of calamity, but of welfare… to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11 Thank You for the wonderful plans You have for each of us! And Lord, thank You, that “He who began a good work in me will continue it until the day of Jesus Christ!” Philippians 1:6 In Jesus’ name, amen.
So my friends, He ain’t done with me yet!
Melissa – July 27, 2016
p.s. – in response to my thank you email, Msgr responded with the following… “We are actually quite good working together (your virtues more than mine) despite our different approaches!
There’s a wonderful story about the future Cardinal McIntyre of Los Angeles when he was vice-chancellor of the Archdiocese of New York. He had charge of the Dorothy Day ‘file’ and was forever denying her permission for lovely-sounding things (like having a Midnight Mass in a manger) that were against the rules. But she obeyed him without complaint and mutual respect developed despite their very different perspectives (McIntyre was famously conservative).
When a somewhat reactionary group in the States petitioned Rome to place some kind of restrictions or censure on Dorothy (who is now praised by one and all, including Pope Francis) they stood a good chance of succeeding. But McIntyre came to her defense and nothing came of it…
Though let’s be clear: I am not a future cardinal, and you are not Dorothy Day! We just do our best to please the Lord in our own ways.”
God is so… good!