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REFLECTION: God delights in me?

Sunday, August 14th, 2016

Multiple years ago, as I joined two others in prayer ministry, we encountered an older gentleman who asked for prayer.  Delayed by a conversation with the previous recipient, I joined midway, informing the man not to be alarmed as I began praying behind him.  While the two in front ministered, I began to sense that our Father had a message for him  and so I said, “I am not sure why, but I am sensing our Father say He is so proud of you.”  The same promptings came throughout the session and as I received them, I repeated, “Sir, He still wants me to tell you how proud He is of you.”  At one point, the man lifted his right arm and he enbraced me while we continued to minister. By the time we closed, he turned around and said, “Iève never heard that before.”  To that I replied, He gave you a curve ball, didn’t He?  Just remember, God is so proud of you.”  To that, the gentleman, who arrived grumpy and with a stiff arm (I learned about it after the fact) cupped my face and said, “He is so proud of you too!”

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Did you know God delights in you?  Yes, you!  At times, it seems too abstract to fathom.  How can a God who I canèt see or feel love meÉ  Scripture teaches us that ÈGod is spirit, and His worshippers must workship in spirit and in truth.È  John 4:24.

REFLECTION: Anne’s Prayer…

Friday, August 5th, 2016

 

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It had been over a year since I last received an email from a friend of mine.  We aren’t very close and yet I have no hesitation calling her my friend.

Yesterday, I awoke to this e-mail from Anne.  It was penned at 4:33 a.m. ….

“Hi Melissa, what a glorious day it is going to be. I’m going to be in paradise.

I am waiting at Burnaby General Hospital for the hospice and if you can come by and visit me that would be great see you later bye bye.
I am currently at A to Z right now but I’m scheduled to move pretty soon.”

Not knowing what state she was in, I rushed.  Thankfully God’s provisions were abundant and I had assistance in contacting the hospital to see if she was still with us and with directions to the hospital.  Knowing that parking would be difficult surrounding the vicinity of the hospital, God prompted me to ask for assistance and the lady of the house had offered me the space in front of her home.  She was good at giving foot directions to the hospital too.

In truth, I had no idea what to expect.  I had asked God to take over and I asked the Holy Spirit to fill me.  I ran, not knowing where to go, but God continued to provide by-standers who pointed me to the right place.

When I reached Palliative Care and I asked for Anne, a nurse pointed me to a bright eyed lady who was eating her breakfast while she sat on a wheel chair. I was both pleasantly surprised and amazed!  Here was the lady who had written she was going to be in paradise, sitting up outside of her hospital room eating her breakfast.  Undoubtedly she was weaker than I last saw her, but she looked good!

Not wanting to be kept away from the activities of the world, Anne asks to be situated where the action is. She still wants to be in contact with others and to be stimulated, while her desire to learn continues on.  When I prayed with her, I asked our Father to continue to bless her with low keyed adventures.  Anne was thrilled with that.

As I reflect and ponder the day after, I wonder why God had allowed me to go through this tailspin.   Normally woozy and light-headed without breakfast, God provided and He kept this body going right through lunch until mid afternoon.  Wit and physical strength was needed as I packed and carried her belongings to my parked vehicle.  Undoubtedly, His grace was sufficient for me (2 Corinthians 12:9) moment by moment, providing what was needed to help her move into hospice and allowing me to observe what went on in Palliative Care.

Before we left Burnaby General Hospital, I was introduced to Easter, the hospital’s social worker who  Anne had worked with over the last 2 years to support other cancer patients.  Aware that Anne would not be back, she asked if we could help her pen a prayer for their group, which she will call Anne’s Prayer.  Knowing that Anne would be tired and knowing that her fingers were no longer as dexterous and nimble as before, I offered to fulfill the request.

Father God, thank You so much for loving each one of us.  I thank You for blessing me with another day.  As I live through this day, give me the grace to see beauty in myself and in others, give me the grace to tell others how much I appreciate them and how much I love them.  Yes, this is the day the Lord has made, and I will rejoice and be glad in it.  (Psalm 118:24)

Lord, You know the very circumstance that I am in.  I don’t know what to do   At the moment, all I want is to feel and get better.  In the Bible You taught us to trust in the Lord with all our heart and lean not on our own understanding;  In all your ways acknowledge Him (God) and You will make our path smooth.  (Proverbs 3:5-6)  Thank You that I don’t have to figure things out.  Thank You for watching over me and I ask that You take all my worries, my pain, my concerns; take them all Lord to the foot of Jesus’ cross and thank You for making my path smooth.

Lord, You said that nothing can separate us from the Love of God which is in Christ Jesus. (Romans 8:38)  Even my pain and my fears cannot separate me from You.   Thank You for loving me so much!

You said, Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine!  When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through  the fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you.Isaiah 43:1 Thank You that I am never alone.  Thank You for always being with me.   Thank You for loving me.  In Jesus’ name I pray, AMEN.

When Anne was wheeled to her room at the hospice, her first words to the nurse was “I’m hungry!.”  She didn’t like the egg sandwich she was given and before I left, she was wondering out loud whether the restaurant would deliver Chinese take out.  That girl still has her sense of humour and she continues to laugh out loud… I say out loud because she sure has a big, loud laugh!

Please keep Anne in your prayers.  She is just waiting for the last door to open at the time of her passing so she can enter into eternity with our Father in Heaven.

God bless,

Melissa – August 5, 2016

p.s.  – This is an e-mail Anne had sent over a year ago.  Undoubtedly, God continues to use her mightily right to her very end!

 

April 27, 2015

Dear All,

I hope you are doing well.

I had my 5th chemo on April 17th and radiation on April 20th.  The radiation is to zap the cancer cells on my right pelvis/leg away, so I can gain more mobility and perhaps have less pain (I am still on the pain meds, but a lot less now than a few months ago).  I only need one shot.  Last week, I was dealing with the side effects from both chemo and radiation…eeeks.  The chemo side effects are not as pronounced as the 1st time, nevertheless, there are hives, diarrhea, lost of appetite, fatigue, insomnia, dry skin, cold/flu symptoms…However, this week is much better.  Everything has a season and this shall be over soon.

When my radiation oncologist saw me, she was very pleasantly surprised that I am doing exceptionally well.  According to my radiation oncologist…most palliative patients don’t expect to live pass the 6 months.  She told me that I am outside the bell curve and I am a walking miracle!  Praise God the Father, who told me that it wasn’t His will for me to go, about 6 months ago.  Our lives are truly in God’s hands, not doctor’s.

As for the Burnaby Hospital’s faith workshop, it’s coming together.  Every time I get my chemo (I stay in the hospital for about 4-7 hours), we brainstorm on the next meeting.  This time we had a meaningful meeting with a very good friend of mine from church.  We cannot offer the religion that we don’t know.  I can only offer the faith that I know, love, believe and works for me.  Evidently, the patients with faith are doing better than the ones without faith.  If the purpose of this workshop is to help the patients to do better, then we must talk about the faith.  Christian faith is not about making bad people good, but to make spiritually dead people alive!  Our spirit goes on forever, it will never cease to exist.  My spirit departed from my body in early, I think it was on Oct. 2nd, 2014.  My spirit was in between this world and the next…I guess this is like the physical death, when our spirit departs from our physical body.  Yet, there is no fear, but with great anticipation to reunite with Christ.  In the darkness, there’s only one door with the light shone thru the door frame.  It was the only door that was partially open.  There was no other door and there was no other way…everything else was in silence and darkness.  This experience confirms, Christ is the only way to heaven.  I had all my senses with me; I could see, hear and understand.  I also had a body.  I remember I was going to pick up my robe and ready to run to the light.  There was no pain, but joy, great joy!   It’s so true that we are going to have a new body that’s pain free (Not like the one I have now).  I am very privileged to have this rare experience.  There is a heaven, we are going to have a new body and Christ is standing by the door to take us to heaven.  This confirms that everything in the Bible is all TRUE!

Our next meeting is on May 8th @ 2pm and it’s also my next chemo date.  Since the nurses are not going to let me get out of the IV room, so the meeting is going to be in the Burnaby Cancer Clinic’s board room.  I will be taking my IV pole with me to the meeting, it will be quite a scene!  If you know anyone who might be benefiting, from patients, caregivers, friends or family, please pass the invitation around.  They can contact Easter directly, 604-412-6117.

A lot of patients/people use the term of “fighting against cancer“.  I am not sure if I understand.  If we are fighting against something, what is our enemy?  Is it cancer or our own fear?  The science has not concluded the cause of cancer or having the antidote to fix cancer.  Cancer is not a visitor, but an invader.  It’s will never leave me alone, it’s here to stay.  My life has changed drastically and it will never be restored to the pre-cancer state.  I need to learn quickly of the changes, from the disease itself, medications, side effects, survival rates and so on…to the impact on my physical, emotional, spiritual, psychological, professional and the list goes on.  The impact has reached to every corner of my being.  The fight is not to get my old life back, but to make the most of it with whatever I have left.  When I survey whatever I have left, I am thankful and feel very blessed.  I can still function, take care of myself, learn, communicate and I still have all my senses.  I appreciate life itself and with the people God sent into my life.  I am alive!  Spiritually, my relationship with the Creator has grown much deeper.  Contrarily, my body has gone weaker to almost dead to being revived.   My medical/physical condition is beyond what the doctors can explain.  Only God can make all these happen.

The fight, is not for repairing or restoring of the old, but to replace with something new, like a brand new, heavenly operating system.  The fight is to accept what’s in my life, to let go of my old self and let Christ take it over.  I don’t know why should it be a fight, but I know my pride and sin nature will always want to put up a fight.

I thank you all for walking alongside of me.  Many of you have been praying and wishing me well.  I thank you and appreciate all your kind thoughts and prayers.  Please feel free to drop me a note and let me know how are you doing.

Blessings,

Anne